disappointed..sad..numb..imagine having all those feelings at the same time.

disappointed. wif who? someone close to you. whom u know for a long time. y? coz he/she let u down. u expect them to be this way but as it turn out, they're different then who u think they are.

sad. y? coz one of ur family member are sick. just seeing them being sick and ill makes ur heart sore..it makes u depress not being able to help them. but i guess all u can do is pray. pray everyday that this person will get better. never give up hope.

numb. y numb? well wen u're feeling damn tired and ur brain cud not function plus u receive bad news that u did not ecxpect..well basically ur whole emotions and feelings grew cold and numb. u feel nothing. neither sad nor angry. ur like a walking zombie/robot. u cant let the tears of frustration out from ur eyes..it's frozen..refuse to fall..

wtf! this conclude tonite's entry. gdnite folks.

Katrina..Rita..Nabi..hmmm..wat else? well cant remember the rest but these r the famouse name which we often heard nowadays. wat am i talking about? well unless ur an alien, im toking bout those hurricanes which are causing destruction and chaos in america and japan..just flip to any newspaper here and u can c articles about those hurricanes..sad but true..the world is ending..wen? only god knows. all we can do is to be prepared.

hmm..ramadhan's coming..a mnth full of perseverance to many stuff, not just eating and drinking...looking forward for this coming 2 mnths..

hmm..well running out of ideas of wat to write so guess this blog ends here tonite..adios

just love Billie's voice..his voice is really unique/nice..anyway..watching green days live performance now and as usual..it was greeaat! awesome! very energetic! too bad they didnt perform When I Come Around and Time of Your Life(those are my ol time favs!) anyway..just wanna publish this lyrics by GC..njoy..

The World Is Black - Good Charlotte

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen

Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

ps: gd luck for the results girls!!

Top news: J.D. FORTUNE has finally prove himself worthy to lead inxs in their upcoming tour.

yessss! J.D. has won the competition! wohhoooooo! well..i was hoping Marty will win it but then i can c y inxs chose J.D. he's more involved wif the band..i mean while performing, he will like interact wif the band while Marty, well he'll just do his own stuff, entertaining the crowd wherelse there is less chemistry on stage wif the band..(well that's my opinion anyway) MiG Ayeeeesaaaa...haha..i like the sound of that..MiG Ayesa..well i think he knows the outcome wen inxs were to eliminate one out of the 3..i can c it on his face..slightly dejected..oh well..its nice to c jordis and sweet suzie mcneil on stage again..haha 'sweeeet suzie mcneil' dave loves to call her that..and he did call her that again wen brooke introduce each contestants once again on stage..

oh yeah..talking about the stage..im really..truly..madly..in love with the house band lead guitarist!!! wohoooooo! he rocks man!! the way he plays the guitar..my goodness! it was bloody A.W.E.S.O.M.E!! haha..kk..i know i use that word lots of time here but oh well..who cares..that guy is just amazing! i get goosebumps when i hear the sound of that guitar..electric guitar mind u..he plays his ass out! i was totally blown away!(k im overreacting here..heh) but seriously..the whole house band ROCKS!! /m\ congrats to J.D. once again..he deserve it..

and well that conculdes tonite's entry..

hmmmm..i made a mistake wen i said that the bravery's lead guitarist is married. well actually i assumed that he's married coz i thought i saw him wearing a ring on his wedding finger(is there such a term as wedding finger??) my bad

anyways..hmm..wat to say..ahh..result in a couple of days..am i nervous? hell yes!! been slacking all the way last terms..oh well..no use thinking bout it now

the final result for rockstar:inxs will be out 2molo morning..gotta watch it..it starts at 9.30am..so that means that i have to wake up early..and time check..its 1.45am now! cant sleep. am bored to death. nothing to do. everyone at home is asleep. the only things that acc me are my tv and my frens at msn..

crap! there's no good vidz at mtv now! urgh!! am actually waiting for mcr's new vidz..Ghost of You..saw a glimpse of it at trl just now and im dying to watch it! net speed sux so thats y im not d/l the vidz via net..dammit! ah wateva! life's dull now

time check...2 minutes till 1am..and here i am blogging away..watching mtv live: the bravery..damn they're gd man..up till now i didnt realised that the lead guitarist is a lefty..he's damn talented! and not to mention H.O.T. muahahahaha...but too bad he's married..they're performing honest mistake now..ahh..luv that song ;)

anyway just watched the VMA just now..n boo!! mcr didnt win any awards! dammit!! they should win man! i mean they're awesome! but anyway i was really happy when greenday nabbed 7 awards including video of the year..wohoooo!! their performances was A.W.E.S.O.M.E!! mcr did a gd job too :)..hmm..wat else..well the show basically wasnt that entertaining..they should put more live bands performing and less flashy/stripper dancer on stage! more alternative/rock bands and less on rnb/hip hop! my eyes are like getting super tired watching those performing like 50 cent..and that kanye west..urgh..damn irritating! a sore to the eye..oh well ive list out some of the bands which i would love to see more..they r...(in no particular order):

mcr
green day
good charlotte
the killers
the bravery
maroon 5
all american rejects
papa roach
the calling
oasis
muse
3 doors down

and other great bands out there which i cant remember now...

oh yeah rockstar inxs rocks man! im rooting for marty and jd! miG not bad too..i was kinda sad when susie had to leave..but honestly i had expected her to leave today..or should i say yest..i dun think inxs wants a woman in their band..hmm..who shall win..i dunno..we shall find out nxt week! till then adios!

after tsunami..now its the katrina hurricane in the US. wat's happening to the world? is the end getting nearer? i shiver as i thought of that. toooo much death now..way too much..between 2001-2005, i guess the total amount of death has reached billions worlwide?? k i dare not think of wat might happen in the future..1st its the war, then the disease, tsunami and recently the hurricane. wat's next? hopefully no more disaster will occur. its just too sad to see many inoccent ppl get killed..especially young children and babies! hmmm..well for now, all we can do is to pray that these things wont happen to us..and pray hard that all these natural disaster will stop asap.