3 years...exactly 3 years ago...i never thought i would lose a person whom matter to me most. 3 years ago, 6th December 2005...i never thought i would lose someone who's been in my life throughout my 19 yrs of life...3 years ago...i have never ever thought that i would lose my father at such a young age. It's been 3 years...and yet i still miss him. The man who pampered me endlessly, who showered me with endless love, who got me everything i ever wanted, passed away peacefully while in a coma state. I wasnt there when he leave us. Sadly, i was in school. I miss him. I really miss him.

And yet now..exactly a week ago, 17th December 2008..my dearest, closest aunt passed away. Another huge blow. Tears did not fall till i saw my mum crying uncontrollably. I feel her pain and her lost. She's lost her close friend..my dad's sister 10 years ago...3 years ago she lost her husband..and now she's lost her older sister...her bestest friend. Only God knows how i felt that day, seeing my mum shed tears of sorrow. No one likes losing their love ones. But we have to accept fate. This is the circle of life. People will die someday and leave their love ones behinds. However sadness will linger..like now. Sadness hungs heavy in the air. I miss her. We all miss her. She will never fade in our memory.

Al-fatihah kepada Hajah Maimunah Bte Kassim.
Al-fatihah kepada Haji Mohamad Bin Haji Mohd Zin.
Semoga roh mereka dicucuri Allah SWT. Amin.

A dream has been fulfilled..and yet i have tons more to go...
Been feeling really happy, excited, elated, joyous, thankful and......well confuse lately.
Happy for obvious reasons...
Confuse for some reasons...shall not elaborate more...




I fondle keys to my heart
When everyone's heart seems so calm
And you found the lock to my dorm
And opened the door to my trust fund, my vestry

Tuna in the Brine - Silverchair

This has always been my favourite lines from Silverchair's song...go figure.

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's gonna to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment, maybe sing with me
All - ah peaceful melody
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on closer dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This is out fate, I'm yours

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

disappointed
annoyed
frustrated









fuck!

funny..one minute you're laughing heartily..and the next you're crying your hearts out..ever encounter such a turmoil experience before? bet most ppl have.

i guess that's life. "Life is like a rollercoaster" the ever popular, over-used phrase that we all hear occasionally.

sometimes when you're feeling low, you feel as if you're all alone in this dark, unfair little world..BUT when you're feeling high, elated and happy, you feel as if you're the luckiest human being to ever walk on this planet.

funny..one minute you're extremely grateful..and the next you're feeling resentful.

i guess that's what makes us human. We have flaws and faults and make stupid mistakes..but that's what make us human. We're not perfect.

think about it.

How old is Singapore? 43! Happy Birthday Singapore! 43 yrs of independence....how lucky we are to live in this small, sunny little island...(although the living expenses here are getting more and more and more ridiculously EXPENSIVE) *sigh*

Anyway...am loving this new job. No unreasonable-moody-irritating-demanding bosses here. Everyone's been very sweet and nice. A new environment, new colleagues, new tasks...all in all, (cant believe im saying this...) i love my job! ahhh yess!

My old habit kicks in recently. (thanks to bestie). Been reading non-stop, during lunch, dinner, before going to bed and even at work! sheesh! Ever since i left sec sch, my reading days were pratically declining from 1 book per mnth to about 1 book for 6-7 mnths?? It took me THAT long to finish up a book! Last book i've read was Blood and Gold by Anne Rice and that took me practially about 6 mnths to complete! *sigh* pathetic i know. However, ever since i got to know about Twilight by Stephenie Meyer, my reading speedometer increases. I was actually reading another book, Vampire's Secret by Raven Hart (Bestie's book) when i came across Twilight. After reading the summary and watching the movie trailer (yes Hollywood has converted the book into a movie) my interest with Twilight increases. Didnt realised that reading Twilight brought back bittersweet memories of my days in sec sch. Oh how much i miss those days! (right bestie? *grin*) Anyway, i shall wait in pure AGONY until the movie arrives here (25122008).

Anyone interested in Twilight or for other installments of her books can go to Stephenie Meyer's official webpage. (click on her name).

Oh yeah did i mention dat this book is an International Bestseller? Go figure. Toodles!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2008!!!

wow! time sure pass by really really fast! without u knowing it, it's 2008! *whistle*

my 2007 highlights! -:

1. 23rd May 2007 - Graduation Day!

wohoo!! finally i've obtained a Diploma in Internet Computing and 23rd May 07 (which was a day after me birthday *grin*) marks a really special meaning for me. It's my graduation day! im soo..extremely proud of myself! (well the results wasn't that thrilling..can do better if more effort were put in *sigh*) anyway, i've managed to overcome all those obstacles which i've been through for the past 3 yrs..thanks to all my family and my friends!! i love u all!!

2. 11th December 2007 - My Chemical Romance Concert -- The Max Pavillion @ Singapore Expo!

A.M.A.Z.I.N.G!!!!!!! need i say more? my first concert ever! the most brilliant! amazing! superb! terrific! fantastic! marvelous! stupendous! concert i've ever seen in my 21 years of life!! the concert was rather short though...1 hr 30mins...it's simply not enough! i want more!! we want more!! come back guys!!

hopefully they'll be back this yr...i shall hold on to what Gerard said.."We'll be back next yr!" (which meant this yr) *wink*

oh! on my previous entry..i did wrote down that some guys in the crowd started throwing balloons right before the concert...hmmm..from what i've read somewhere...it wasnt actually balloons...but condoms! sicko! *sigh* some ppl will do anything just for the sake of entertainment. oh well! adios!