i weep..silent tears fall down in the middle of the night
i weep..out of pure misery
i weep..letting out the pure frustration out of my aching heart
i weep..feeling guilty as i have never feel before
i weep..as i welcome the darkness surround
i weep..and weep..and weep..
and weep for my fucking confusing soul!

Ghost Of You - My Chemical Romance

I never said i'd lie in wait forever
If I died we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever..

Ever..Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall
If I fall (down)

well..wat can i say..i just L.O.V.E this band! they totally rock man! /m\ the album Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge is bloody good i tell ya..go get it!! it's worth your money! ;) oh yeah..check out the vidz to this song..it's fucking awesome!! too bad someone had to die in that vidz..heh..

Everything You Want - Vertical Horizon

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

But you'll just tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

waking up early in the morning, we're supposed to feel fresh and start a day with a smile..but wen i woke up this morning and after taking my early breakfast(fasting month now), i felt sad. y? coz rite on the front cover of the newspaper, there's a picture of ppl, carrying dead bodies.

another hugh earthquake had occured in india and pakistan..kashmir if im not mistaken. thousands ppl are dead and i think another thousands, cud be close to a million lost their homes. another tragedy has yet again strike another country. wat is more pitiful is that most of these ppl are poor. a victim is quoted of saying "yesterday, we have homes to live in but now, our homes are gone" isnt that heart wrenching? im glad that many countries take immediate actions to help these countries out. counrties are uniting together to provide help and medical aid to these unfortunate countries.

with all these tragedies happening to the world nowadays, one should take a step back and think about wat has happened. everything u own and have could be taken away just like that..without any warning. so appriciate wat u have and always try and help others who's in need.

let us all pray that all these natural disaster will stop and that we can all live peacefully togther like we used to.

well, most girls will go crazy wen they saw pics of prince william or prince harry on the newspaper or magazine. i wonder how they'll react if they see prince andrea and prince pierre's pics..to me..these prince of Monaco are way..way better looking than william and harry. dun believe me..just search for Andrea and Pierre Casiraghi's pics. they're hot man! (swoon!) hahaha ;>

disappointed..sad..numb..imagine having all those feelings at the same time.

disappointed. wif who? someone close to you. whom u know for a long time. y? coz he/she let u down. u expect them to be this way but as it turn out, they're different then who u think they are.

sad. y? coz one of ur family member are sick. just seeing them being sick and ill makes ur heart sore..it makes u depress not being able to help them. but i guess all u can do is pray. pray everyday that this person will get better. never give up hope.

numb. y numb? well wen u're feeling damn tired and ur brain cud not function plus u receive bad news that u did not ecxpect..well basically ur whole emotions and feelings grew cold and numb. u feel nothing. neither sad nor angry. ur like a walking zombie/robot. u cant let the tears of frustration out from ur eyes..it's frozen..refuse to fall..

wtf! this conclude tonite's entry. gdnite folks.

Katrina..Rita..Nabi..hmmm..wat else? well cant remember the rest but these r the famouse name which we often heard nowadays. wat am i talking about? well unless ur an alien, im toking bout those hurricanes which are causing destruction and chaos in america and japan..just flip to any newspaper here and u can c articles about those hurricanes..sad but true..the world is ending..wen? only god knows. all we can do is to be prepared.

hmm..ramadhan's coming..a mnth full of perseverance to many stuff, not just eating and drinking...looking forward for this coming 2 mnths..

hmm..well running out of ideas of wat to write so guess this blog ends here tonite..adios

just love Billie's voice..his voice is really unique/nice..anyway..watching green days live performance now and as usual..it was greeaat! awesome! very energetic! too bad they didnt perform When I Come Around and Time of Your Life(those are my ol time favs!) anyway..just wanna publish this lyrics by GC..njoy..

The World Is Black - Good Charlotte

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening

We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame

But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen

Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?

We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see

ps: gd luck for the results girls!!

Top news: J.D. FORTUNE has finally prove himself worthy to lead inxs in their upcoming tour.

yessss! J.D. has won the competition! wohhoooooo! well..i was hoping Marty will win it but then i can c y inxs chose J.D. he's more involved wif the band..i mean while performing, he will like interact wif the band while Marty, well he'll just do his own stuff, entertaining the crowd wherelse there is less chemistry on stage wif the band..(well that's my opinion anyway) MiG Ayeeeesaaaa...haha..i like the sound of that..MiG Ayesa..well i think he knows the outcome wen inxs were to eliminate one out of the 3..i can c it on his face..slightly dejected..oh well..its nice to c jordis and sweet suzie mcneil on stage again..haha 'sweeeet suzie mcneil' dave loves to call her that..and he did call her that again wen brooke introduce each contestants once again on stage..

oh yeah..talking about the stage..im really..truly..madly..in love with the house band lead guitarist!!! wohoooooo! he rocks man!! the way he plays the guitar..my goodness! it was bloody A.W.E.S.O.M.E!! haha..kk..i know i use that word lots of time here but oh well..who cares..that guy is just amazing! i get goosebumps when i hear the sound of that guitar..electric guitar mind u..he plays his ass out! i was totally blown away!(k im overreacting here..heh) but seriously..the whole house band ROCKS!! /m\ congrats to J.D. once again..he deserve it..

and well that conculdes tonite's entry..

hmmmm..i made a mistake wen i said that the bravery's lead guitarist is married. well actually i assumed that he's married coz i thought i saw him wearing a ring on his wedding finger(is there such a term as wedding finger??) my bad

anyways..hmm..wat to say..ahh..result in a couple of days..am i nervous? hell yes!! been slacking all the way last terms..oh well..no use thinking bout it now

the final result for rockstar:inxs will be out 2molo morning..gotta watch it..it starts at 9.30am..so that means that i have to wake up early..and time check..its 1.45am now! cant sleep. am bored to death. nothing to do. everyone at home is asleep. the only things that acc me are my tv and my frens at msn..

crap! there's no good vidz at mtv now! urgh!! am actually waiting for mcr's new vidz..Ghost of You..saw a glimpse of it at trl just now and im dying to watch it! net speed sux so thats y im not d/l the vidz via net..dammit! ah wateva! life's dull now

time check...2 minutes till 1am..and here i am blogging away..watching mtv live: the bravery..damn they're gd man..up till now i didnt realised that the lead guitarist is a lefty..he's damn talented! and not to mention H.O.T. muahahahaha...but too bad he's married..they're performing honest mistake now..ahh..luv that song ;)

anyway just watched the VMA just now..n boo!! mcr didnt win any awards! dammit!! they should win man! i mean they're awesome! but anyway i was really happy when greenday nabbed 7 awards including video of the year..wohoooo!! their performances was A.W.E.S.O.M.E!! mcr did a gd job too :)..hmm..wat else..well the show basically wasnt that entertaining..they should put more live bands performing and less flashy/stripper dancer on stage! more alternative/rock bands and less on rnb/hip hop! my eyes are like getting super tired watching those performing like 50 cent..and that kanye west..urgh..damn irritating! a sore to the eye..oh well ive list out some of the bands which i would love to see more..they r...(in no particular order):

mcr
green day
good charlotte
the killers
the bravery
maroon 5
all american rejects
papa roach
the calling
oasis
muse
3 doors down

and other great bands out there which i cant remember now...

oh yeah rockstar inxs rocks man! im rooting for marty and jd! miG not bad too..i was kinda sad when susie had to leave..but honestly i had expected her to leave today..or should i say yest..i dun think inxs wants a woman in their band..hmm..who shall win..i dunno..we shall find out nxt week! till then adios!

after tsunami..now its the katrina hurricane in the US. wat's happening to the world? is the end getting nearer? i shiver as i thought of that. toooo much death now..way too much..between 2001-2005, i guess the total amount of death has reached billions worlwide?? k i dare not think of wat might happen in the future..1st its the war, then the disease, tsunami and recently the hurricane. wat's next? hopefully no more disaster will occur. its just too sad to see many inoccent ppl get killed..especially young children and babies! hmmm..well for now, all we can do is to pray that these things wont happen to us..and pray hard that all these natural disaster will stop asap.

Life is short. Life is unpredictable. Life can be fun. Life can be dreadful sometimes. Well that's life.

Why is life short? Well coz human do not know when they will die. They may die young or old. The average human age are somewhere around 70-80...few managed to climb to the 90s. Isnt that short?

Why is life unpredictable? Well coz u do not know wat will happen in the future. Unexpected things may happen..both good or bad.

Why life can be fun? Well if life is not fun, then we're better off being dead. Life is like the sea tide. When it's high, those period are the best times of ur life, but when its low, those are the worst time of ur life.

Why is life dreadful? Well in life, there are tons of difficult obstacles which one needs to overcome. Overcoming those obstacles alone may be damn hard. So to those who prefer to overcoming it alone, well they might find life to be dreadful.

well im crapping here...urgh!

the national dah this year was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. had a great time especially during the fireworks. man it was totally magnificant! marvellous! fantastic! superb! the marching parade was pretty neat too.

anyway, amidst all of the celebration, i've observe certain things. of how 'kiasu'(selfish) and ignorant ppl can be. instruction were given several times and yet some of them simply refused to follow it. some even asked y they have to do this/that. come on ppl! just followed the fucking instructions and dun complain! serve us right for being dub as 'kiasu singaporeans'.

tired mind always leads to unclear thinking. plus not to mention a shitty attitude. ppl cant think straight when theyr'e tired/exhausted. their brain just refuse to work/think properly. they might not have intended to act like an asshole but then, wen ur feeling crap, small lil mistakes can irritate u like hell making ur blood rise.

well its crazy to think how fast time pass by. u do not even realise wat have u done in the past. its like life just rushed pass by. everyday, ppl dies somewhere in this world. wat i come to realise recently, after the death of some1 whom i knew, is that at one point, ppl whom u know are well and alive, can just be dead the next day without any warning. this kept me thinking more. its disturbing to be thinking about death but sometime cant help it. u might never know who mite go next. so do take the time to appriciate ppl surrounding u. u'll never know if u might c them again in the future. forgive and forget. never hold grudges.

Wind of Change - Scorpions

(http://www.the-scorpions.com/english/)

I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change
An August summer night
Soldiers passing by
Listening to the wind of change

The world is closing in
Did you ever think
That we could be so close, like brothers
The future's in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

Walking down the street
Distant memories
Are buried in the past forever
I follow the Moskva
Down to Gorky Park
Listening to the wind of change

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

The wind of change
Blows straight into the face of time
Like a stormwind that will ring the freedom bell
For peace of mind
Let your balalaika sing
What my guitar wants to say

Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow share their dreams
With you and me
Take me to the magic of the moment
On a glory night
Where the children of tomorrow dream away
in the wind of change

ps: take time to listen to this beautiful song :)

some people in this world are really selfish, ignorant and idiotic! i cant believe such people existed in this world. then again, there are tons of evil and merciless people out there.

was really pissed off wen i saw pile of trash inside the lift..with flyers..burger wrapper..tissues..more papers(wat the hell..didnt they know that there's a rubbish bin just outside the lift??!! Asshole!) these people are wat i call retards! kiasu! ignorant! big fucking ASSHOLE!! they dun care about others..they care about themselves. they dun use their fucking brain to think that they are polluting the environment..which means that they are making our living environment dirty..unhygenic..which will attract all those pests..esp roaches!! urgh!

if i could have one wish..no two wishes..1stly i would wish that the world has its peace..meaning no war, no fights, no terrorists, no murders...2ndly..that people are more considerate, polite, have the brain to put other 1st before themselves and lastly have a pure and sincere heart.

damn computer..somtimes technology can be a pain in the ass at times..just wrote in a meaningful poem but laptop got some problems..urgh!

the month of july has been a very tragedic month with all the bombing and all..hmm..wat is happening to this world?? is the world coming to an end? there's too much hate in this world that everyone is killing each other for stupid or no reason at all! im really afraid of wat will happen in the future if these things carry on..it seems that everywhere u go..every news u read, people are either dying from rare virus or they are killed mercilessly. damn!

Listen To Your Heart - Roxette
(www.inlyrics.com)

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark. Listen to your heartwhen he's calling for you.
Listen to your heartthere's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going and I don't know why,but listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
And there are voicesthat want to be heard.
So much to mentionbut you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,the beauty that's beenwhen love was wilder than the wind.

Time check..2.43am. Been a dull day 2day. nothing much happened. have no fucking idea why the hell i register for this blog thingy. have no interest in letting ppl know about my everydaylife but i guess curiosty always wins. am really curious why these ppl like to write about their personla life in this blog..hmmm..guess this is wat happen to me when im damn bored and have no idea wat to do.. so as a result i do stupid stuff like registering an online blog. damn im full of craps today..urgh!